Sleep Deprived=Crazy Thought Patterns

I probably should have gotten more sleep than I did last night but as usual right after I feel tired and junk and finally get in bed and lay on my side I start to question life meanings and stuff. Like if all I've ever done is gonna mean something to somebody someday? Am I gonna find love again? Why would I ever eat a peanut butter and banana sandwich with mayonnaise? WHY DO PEOPLE EAT MAYONNAISE? Don't they know it's just fat spread across some white bread? Why don't people realize that music is important?

But my most recent wanderings of the mind as of late have been about whether or not I can be happy with myself. Self discovery is interesting, you learn a lot about what you believe in and what makes you tick. I think everyone needs a self discovery trip at least once every 9 weeks. Mine is teaching me to love myself when other people told me they didn't like me the way I was, either appearance wise or how I acted. Also I'm trying different things, mostly ideas that will just help me be a happier person, but I'm really trying to define myself as a person. So far I know who I am, and what I want, now I have to define the means to get what I want. Although right now the means to get what I want are to move away from the computer and fix some freakin cereal cause my stomach is severely upset we skipped dinner last night.

So far I am happy with myself, sure there are things I need to fix but for some reason I don't worry as much about stuff that has to do with me, just more or less about school worries now. Like how ECU has the slowest updates to financial aid that I have ever seen in my life, and I NEED TO HAVE MY MONEY NOW FOR SCHOOL!!!!!... But yeah beyond that I am pretty happy with myself at the present.

I wish the best to everyone on their self discovery trips, but please for the both of us at least bring along some sweet rocking jams because for me, dancing is an amazing stress reliever in times of self doubt. AKA Mike Posner and Lady Gaga

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hU1ekhUVN_E

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4I_1Jdi7PkI